{"id":5250,"date":"2013-11-11T16:41:38","date_gmt":"2013-11-11T23:41:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/annenahm.com\/?p=5250"},"modified":"2013-11-11T16:59:54","modified_gmt":"2013-11-11T23:59:54","slug":"honey-badger-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/annenahm.com\/?p=5250","title":{"rendered":"Honey Badger"},"content":{"rendered":"

Meta-miserable Bullshit Below<\/strong><\/p>\n

Am still dealing with the family member excommunication.\u00a0 Today, I am wandering the house in a tatty old bathrobe, dead eyed exhausted, wondering how much I can write about before needing to consult a lawyer.\u00a0 Since this blog does not pull down mad levels of lawyer-hiring cash, this grief’ll be brief.<\/p>\n

* People in my family (self included) have been acting increasingly crazy in the midst of the excommunication. I was pretty baffled until tumbling upon one of those handy-dandy CLASSIC (insert type of dysfunction) FAMILY DYNAMICS flow charts.\u00a0 Then everything became pretty clear.\u00a0 Now, when somebody’s behavior goes wonky, I consult the chart.<\/p>\n

Then I go “Oooohhhh” (light bulb of enlightenment!) followed by “Ohhhhhh” (wow, pretty sad we’re textbook dysfunctional).<\/p>\n

* Shitty dynamics do not happen in a vacuum.\u00a0 Now that I have better understanding, I get to look at the role I played in those shitty dynamics.<\/p>\n

*I’m proud of going through with the excommunication. There was a lot of pressure to make-nice and smooth over, and I am certain not doing so was the right decision.\u00a0 I feel brave, and also like I have a big scar now.\u00a0 Most of my concept of who I am is being soft, gentle, understanding, accepting.\u00a0 Am working hard to accept being scarred-up ass kicker as part of being a good woman.\u00a0 Part of me is frightened people will see me as old, unlovable battle-ax.\u00a0 Another part of me thinks SO FUCKING WHAT?\u00a0 Battle ax is how I feel right now.\u00a0\u00a0 I guess this is how I tell you I’ve got some anger I don’t know what to do with yet.\u00a0 Anyway, since this is going so terribly meta, I’ll wrap up by saying my family of origin feels broken right now, and I’m muddling through it.<\/p>\n

Coming Out\/ Blog Conference Question<\/strong><\/p>\n

Can’t let that bit of crapulence deter me from original plan of coming out.\u00a0 BlogHer is having a conference in San Jose next summer.\u00a0 Would I see any of you there?\u00a0 I have zero interest in SEO optimization or whatnot, but would be terribly interested in meeting any of you face to face.<\/p>\n

Has anyone gone in the past or planning to go this summer?\u00a0 Hit me up, yo, so I’ll know to look out for some familiar faces.\u00a0 PS:\u00a0 If none of you are attending, I probably won’t either.\u00a0 So there!\u00a0 Am sheep, going only where the cool kids are.\u00a0 Somebody point me in the direction of the cool kids please.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Meta-miserable Bullshit Below Am still dealing with the family member excommunication.\u00a0 Today, I am wandering the house in a tatty old bathrobe, dead eyed exhausted, wondering how much I can write about before needing to consult a lawyer.\u00a0 Since this blog does not pull down mad levels of lawyer-hiring cash, this grief’ll be brief. * …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6,30],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5250","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-family","category-imcomingout"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/annenahm.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5250","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/annenahm.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/annenahm.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/annenahm.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/4"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/annenahm.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5250"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/annenahm.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5250\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5256,"href":"https:\/\/annenahm.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5250\/revisions\/5256"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/annenahm.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5250"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/annenahm.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5250"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/annenahm.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5250"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}