June 2008


Links and cheekbone implant26 Jun 2008 10:44 am

Sexy title, no? This is an overview of the surgery I had as a teenager and the complications that arose 13 years later and the surgeries that resulted.

When I was about 17, I had my face broken. My jaw wasn’t growing right, and I had an under-bite. Part of the diagnosis was that the middle of my skull (cheekbones down to upper jaw) had not grown in proportion to the rest of my head. This gave me what I think of as a crescent moon shape face. This lack of growth in the middle of my face caused my jawbone to pull out of socket when I bit down because my teeth did not align properly. And that is bad, people. Bad.

So, this is what they did to fix it: First they put me in braces and messed around with my teeth, making gaps and such for the surgery. Then, some time later (I forget how long) I had general anesthesia surgery. A dental surgeon broke my bottom jaw and pulled it a wee bit back, and he broke off my four front teeth and pulled them a wee bit out.

If you look at the x-ray from last post, you can see that where the lower jaw was broken, there were brackets. I don’t know WTF about all the bolts on top except they helped fasten my top four front teeth back in my head. Also, the doc gave me some silicone implant cheekbones to mimic where that part of my face hadn’t grown. You can’t see the bolts for the cheekbones on the x-ray provided. Just throw like eight more bolts up there in your imagination. As it turned out, the only scar on the outside of my body that I had was where they drilled a small screw into my skull (between my eyebrows) to center my head while they did the work. The rest was all done from the inside. PS: They took that screw out too. But they took it out before I woke up from the first surgery.

I woke up after four hours of surgery, and for the first time since puberty hit, my front teeth were pushed out past my bottom teeth. That was a cool freaking feeling, let me tell you, to feel with my tongue that all my teeth were in a different place. Also? My jaw was wired shut. And it stayed wired shut for two months. God, my parents were so happy: Teenage girl struck mute. Two whole months of not having to listen to the constant squeals of adolescence. Or you know. Squeals of pain. The doc gave me what looked pretty much like a liter bottle full of liquid codeine, so I didn’t squeal in pain too much. Come to think of it, I don’t think I learned too much the second half of my senior year either.

And for full disclosure, my jaw was not actually wired with wire. It was tied together with this intricate design of rubber bands hooked onto braces. I couldn’t open my mouth and I wasn’t allowed to eat solid food for two months after the surgery. ‘nothing that can’t get through a tea-strainer’ was the rule. Getting nutrition was hardly worth it. I also wasn’t allowed to use a straw. Sipping up tablespoons of liquid codeine was totally worth it.

And then I had braces for fifteen months, with lots of appointments to wrangle my moved around teeth back into position.

And then after all of that torture and suckitude, I ended up being a very skinny, pretty, cheekbony college freshman who knew how to drink all her calories. Whoooo-hoooooo! I’d like to say I loved that first brace-free year, but its kind of one big giggly blur.

And that part of my life was pretty much done for thirteen years, except for this weird fear of dentist that developed immediately following the removal of my braces.

Until right after I had my second baby, and my right cheekbone started looking a little disfigured and swollen up. I ignored it for maybe five months because I had a refluxy baby and got no sleep and was a little depressed. Also, that cheekbone implant had always felt different, unlike the left one, which just felt like part of my body.

What I didn’t know was that when the surgeon screwed all those bolts into my cheekbone and upper jaw? He punctured through into my sinus cavity. So at some point, I got a sinus infection (or maybe it was any combination of the half dozen I’ve had in my adult life) and the infection oozed across the barrier of my bone via titanium screws and up into the sweet bosom of silicone implant. I also didn’t know that once bacteria gets on a silicone implant, you’re completely screwed. No blood flows to an implant, so it doesn’t matter how many antibiotics you take, the infection just sits in the soft goo of silicone and waits until it is safe to spread again.

So right around my 31st birthday, I called up my old dental surgeon, and I went in for him to take a look. He looked. He cursed outside my room, and I came to find out that the implants he had used on me thirteen years ago had been ‘cutting edge technology’ at the time, and since then had a terrific FAIL rating for this type of thing. Mostly, he was surprised I had lasted 13 years before getting a problem. Then he told me he would book me for removal surgery in ten days, but that the implant was rejecting and it might ‘come through [my] skin’ because he had seen that happen once before. And if that did happen in the next ten days, I needed to go to the E.R.

The next ten days were a shithole of anxious fun, let me tell you.

That first surgery, a new guy, my old doc’s partner, took my cheekbone implants out. Then I was on antibiotics for four months and no one could figure out why my sinus infection would not go away.

Exploratory surgery was planned, and at my last appointment, the doctor took more x-rays and discovered I had a cyst on my bone. Apparently, more infection had burrowed through my skull along the path that a titanium bolt had left. This infection had gotten to the front of my bone and made a little safe haven where it was protected from blood flow. So I would take antibiotics, and same as the silicone implants, the infection would just wiggle back along a screw to someplace it was protected.

My second surgery they took out all the top screws on my right hand side. And then they cut a chunk of my skull out to get the cyst. I wish I had a good x-ray to show of that, but I was lucky to investigative reportively steal the one I am showing you now. with my artistic rendition in red where things were drilled out. The big red block being where they took the chunk of skull.

screw removal, just as sexy as it sounds

Anyway, the doctor assured me after he cut out my bone that there was absolutely nothing left to get infected on my right side, praise jeebus! And please Anne, for the love of malpractice fees, never darken his doorway again.

But the good doctor left all the bolts on the left hand side. So now every time I get a sinus infection, I get to worry if I am developing some kind of cyst on the left hand side.

I think this covers everything, but to answer the specific questions left in comments:

The New Girl asks:

Huh. Why all those screws?

Just for fun, I guess.

Shorty and All Adither pointed out I appear to have a shitload of teeth:

I do. But also, the x-ray was taken pivoting around my head, to show all my teeth clearly for the picture. I do not look like a rattlesnake jaw in real life.

Stimey asked:

Do you still have the screws? Where do you keep them?

I kept the screws and the implants. There are pictures back there in archives somewhere. I was going to raffle them off, but I was a little concerned about sending medical waste through the mail. Especially with scraps of my bone tissue imbedded in them. My husband keeps them all in a box in his office. He is very possessive that way – I think he was even a little jealous the doctor got to be inside me in a place my husband will never get to go. I keep telling him that one day he’ll be able to fondle my stripped skull bones, but only until the police get there. This does not amuse my husband. I don’t know why.

cheekbone implant24 Jun 2008 10:05 am

I don’t have any tattoos, brands, or other permanent markings on my body. I have no piercing. Not even my ears. I have never worn a pair of dangly earrings unless they had those lame assed clips hanging off them. I didn’t even get my labia lip punch holed that one time like I thought I might.

I think people from the outside assume this lack of markings is because I am WASPy.

On the inside? It’s because if I’m ever on the run, I don’t want to give the police any help identifying my person. Not that I think I’ll ever be on the run. But you know. A girl can always dream. And I guess a lot of my dreams have included screaming “Eff You!” real loud, lighting something on fire, and escaping to Mexico.

I was totally bummed when the State of California required my right thumbprint to renew my license. I tried to wiggle my finger a little and smudge the electronic scan when it happened. This made the machine beep a lot and caused the DMV matron to reach over the counter and hold my hand firmly in place until the beeping stopped. And as anyone who has had their thumbprint taken by the California DMV? Whatever the hell they do to take it burns*.

Anyway, when I’m real irritated, I stare at the person who is the cause of my woe, and I fantasize all the ways I could commit murder while my one identifiable digit is tucked neatly away so as to leave no evidence. I’ve considered taking Kung Fu, if only to get the belt level in which thumbless attack is taught. This fantasy has helped me get through many conversations.

So, no marks on the outside. My insides are a totally different story. I kind of cherish all my dental work because it means I’ll likely get a gravestone that has my real name on it. Take me to CSI! Identify me correctly! You know, once the police drag my bullet riddled body back to the states.

Anyway, I was thinking about this mainly because I am on antibiotics again for a sinus infection. In my blog stats, I see people occasionally looking for ‘cheekbone implants’ and ‘cheekbone implant disasters’, and I realize I do not have a good synopsis for my cheekbone implant disaster. Possibly, because when it was happening, I was all, “wahhh! Disaster!’ and my panic mode does not for a good narrative make.

And also, some of you might not know I had cheekbone implant and removal surgery. For all of you fine people, maybe later this week, I’ll put up a short review, so that the next time I say, “hey, I’m taking augmenton brand antibiotic again and sitting on my thumb waiting to see if this is a generic sinus infection or if my face is about to fall in on itself,” you guys can pat my head and express sympathy instead of putting on your WTF faces. But for now, here is a picture of all the pretty, pretty titanium screws I used to have in my head. Enjoy!

Oh yeah, all those little white dots on my top jaw and big white lines on my bottom jaw? Screws! When they came out, I even got to keep them.

* Strangely enough, when I got my license in the mail? My eye color was wrong. Maybe the DMV matron was exacting some kind of revenge for my thumb tomfoolery.

I have not called and tried to have it changed to the correct color yet. I am not sure if wrong eye color ads to my ‘good’ file of being able to escape the fuzz, or my ‘bad’ file of being in a situation in which I cannot prove who I am.

This keeps me up late some nights debating. Mostly, I stay away from changing it because I’m sure that although wrong eye color is completely DMV’s fault, it will likely somehow become my fault by the time all the line standing and form filling out in triplicate is done. Wrong eye color on your license is a felony, they will probably say. This will result in me having to light the DMV on fire to escape, screaming “eff you!” as I hot tail it to Mexico. And then? Witnesses will report my correct eye color and all will be lost.

ETA: I DID NOT EAT THE BOOGERS FROM LAST POST !11! IT did not taste like chicken! No chicken on earth is that salty!

Family and Uncategorized19 Jun 2008 08:24 am

Our two year-old woke up late this morning. She came into our bedroom, dragging her favorite stuffed animal behind her. At the edge of the bed, she gave this barky seal cough. I reached over and pulled her into my lap.

“You have a cough this morning.” I said.

She nodded in woeful agreement, little cheeks pink and eyes glassy.

I touched her forehead with my lips.

“And you’re a little bit warm.” I said.

“uh-huh.” She agreed, rubbing her nose with the back of her fist and hugging her stuffed animal.

“And you’ve got some booger action going on.” I told her.

“Where?” She asked.

I wiped a small green nose slug off the side of her nostril. I showed her my finger. She peered at it for a long time. Then she looked up at me, eyes doleful, and said:

“Eat it.”

Links and The Crazy and Uncategorized and Weird Ramblings16 Jun 2008 08:57 am

Dear Diary,

I could tell the moment I woke up: Today was going to be a day like no other. The sun was shining and birds were chirping. I knew because guess what? My wrapping was open! I don’t think that’s ever happened before.

pregnancy test puppet annenahm

Free of my plastic restraints, I decided to call my BFF, Carmen. We went to the pool. It was pretty awesome. You can tell I totally need a tan. Give me a break – I’ve been sitting in a bathroom drawer for six months.

at the pool pregnancy test

Around noon, Carmen said we should order some drinks. So we did.

miranda p stick annenahm

Then, around two? This total hottie stopped by the pool.

ken at the pool with miranda p stick annenahm

We tried like mad to get his attention, but he was aloof.

ken aloof annenahm

Did I mention I was pretty drunk? ‘Cause I was.

miranda p stick pretty drunk annenahm

Carmen dared me to flash him. I totally wouldn’t. But then she said she would do it too.
I was all, “Carmen, you slut bagel!”
And she’s all, “shut up before I give you a gorilla mask!”
And I’m like, “You don’t even have the equipment!”

And then we both flashed our boobs.

miranda p stick topless annenahm

While we were doing it, the guy turned away and answered his cell phone. That was way harsh.

ken on phone annenahm

When he got off the phone, he was all, “Don’t be offended, ladies. I’m gay.”

And I was all, what?

And he was all, “I’m a bit of a butt pirate, darling. You know, sailing the single man sea?”

I fantasized about being a pirate with him for a moment. You know, kind of like this:

titanic annenahm

But more piratey:

miranda p stick pirate ken annenahm

And I was all, “….. Ok. I could deal with that.”

He said, “I do not think I mean what you think it is that I mean. Sorry, but our love was never meant to be.”

ken butt pirate miranda p stick annenahm

To cheer me up, he let me say “argh, Matey.” To his boyfriend on the phone. That did make me feel a little better.

anne nahm ken phone miranda p stick

It was a long day. Sad, drunk, and disoriented, I went home and curled into bed.

mirana p stick disoriented annenahm

I dreamed I was on a pirate ship, and the captain fell in love with me and we sailed away.

pirate fantasy miranda p stick annenahm

But then, as I was peacefully slumbering and vaguely hungry for some Captain Crunch, I was TOTALLY ABDUCTED! AS I SLEPT! I was so scared!

miranda p stick abducted annenahm

I can’t even tell you the shocking, vile, disgusting thing that happened. Let’s just say this: I’ll never stand under a sprinkling shower and feel clean again.

wet miranda p stick annenahm

And now I have this weird rash.

miranda p stick strange rash annenahm

Anyway, I hope next month is better.

PS: I’m down, but not out. Tonight, I plan on dreaming about a certain Man of the Sea coming to scratch my itch. Toodles!

miranda p stick pirate itch scratch annenahm

Husband and Links and mission impostible13 Jun 2008 01:50 pm

Hi there. If you are not hip to reading a long and rambly story about my recent experience with what the medical community refers to as Harmonica Twat, then let’s meet up next week, shall we? Otherwise, here we go.

I was at the gym, running on the treadmill, this morning. I have run a few times over the course of my life. On a treadmill even. But I have not had too much experience running on the treadmill at this new gym. In fact, this is the second time I have run there.

Even the first time, (which was Wednesday) I noticed the first treadmill I chose was real … vibrate-y. Like maybe the tread was improperly aligned or something. But no. Second machine I tried was the same as the first. Whatever, right? I hopped on.

I did enjoy several fantasy scenarios during that first run (Wednesday). None especially kinky, despite the rumble-rumblely stuff. Although in one, I was on Knight Rider, driving KITT into the very satisfying (if totally improbable) back door penetration of a Mac Truck. Are you sure you want to do that, Michael? Oh yeah, I’m damn sure. Eighty miles per hour to a dead stop during the length of a half a car? Better grease yourself up for that kind of loving.

Anyway, this morning. I was a little less in love with running and therefore just listening to some music and jogging. Same rumble-rumbly. But after about twenty minutes in? My vaginal canal started to do some weird stuff. Vibrate-y stuff. Like it was humming or something.

It also felt a little like when I gave birth, but not the baby with the holy-jeebus-15 inch head circumference part. More like the afterbirth part, with the strange ‘slithering out’ sensation.

I don’t know what the hell happened down there. I expected to look and see either a) a lot of blood or b) a telephone and attached cord hanging out of my gym shorts. Neither was visible.

I tried to shake it off and slowed down to a walk. By then my crotch had gone totally Blues Traveler Harmonica solo with the vibrating. It was like when someone tickles you really hard and jeez, it doesn’t even tickle, it’s just separating your ribs out OUCH! EFFING STOP! But you still just laugh like a fool anyway.

Some guy looked at me, all smiley and curious to be in on the joke. But as I didn’t want to tell him I was just having a gigglish vaginal canal (which, PS, was totally not sexy at all. Not even with Jack White on my headphones) I just packed it in for the day. No blood or anything when I changed. I dunno.*

And since we are here in confession town, I had a play date at my house a couple of days ago and fully three people failed to even return my phone call to say they wouldn’t come. Usually when this happens, they just show up, which is a different kind of annoyance all together. But not this time. This time, nada.

One of the three called two days later to apologize. But the sick thing is, I’m kinda enjoying the small town melodrama of being pissy with the other two. I tap my fingers together ala Monty Burns and I smile and I wait. Because I know one of these days, they are gonna have to come crawling back. Muwhwhahahhahaha. So I guess bitch is my ice cream flavor this month. And guess what? It’s got hair in it.

* Although since he read it, my husband has been calling ‘pregnancy’, with the Matlock fact points of 1) ticklish vagina, 2) wanting to kick farm animals and other forms of Donald Duck style irritation (including but not limited to squawking unintelligently and wearing a shirt with no pants while doing so) 3) Sex dreams about Danny Bonaduce and 4) my unsolicited DEFCON-4 style crying, screaming temper tantrum last night over all the reasons having another baby right now would be the biggest ass chap since Velcro pubic hair. If so, this would be a ‘surprise’ since we are still using birth control, even though we are looking to start in that direction in a month or two anyway.

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